Wednesday, December 31, 1969
I have thought of Sean everyday from the moment I met him on September 12 1999. If a person could have only one love, then Sean would be mine. Though we were out of touch for some time, not a day goes by without a reminder of our life together. These reminders prompted me to contact him in November and have led to the discovery only yesterday of his death. I was so hoping to hear that he was happy, because Sean's smile was so bright it would light up any room, no matter how large. His laughter was loud, like mine and we laughed alot together. But I also saw his tears, and his heartache, for others and for himself. There are so many contradictions in life, and Sean was so intelligent and observant, that not one escaped his view. Sometimes being able to think and feel is a curse, or can seem like one. I can forgive Sean for feeling cursed, I just can't seem to forget what a blessing he was. That may be the biggest contradiction of all. I'll always love you Sean, and you are the man to which all others will be measured. Please watch over me.
